I wrote this in the mid of September. Right before you leaving. I know this all is your decision to be an Army. But I guess I just didn't have enough guts to post it. I don't even know why. But then earlier this afternoon, I laid my head on the pillow and thought of you. You know what? Today is sooo lonely, all alone, none can freely accept my invitation to go somewhere anytime except you, just like if you were here. And then I decided to post this. To let you know how much I've missed you.
13th of Sept 2014. I'm gonna miss you. That's for sure. I'm gonna miss your laughs, your smiles, your oh-sok-ganteng-face, your hugs, your funnyness, your silly stories, and a lil bit of your jayusness too. I'm gonna miss you mocking at me, telling me I'm not pretty enough wearing that clothes yet I know it's just you don't want to admit I'm the coolest sister anybody could ever ask for. I'm gonna miss your jahilness, how stubborn you are when I remind you not to this and that. I'm gonna miss the times we spend together, our gulat, our fight over the tv and wi-fi and motorcycle and guling and laptop. I'm gonna miss you and I hanging out together, ga mandi tapi pede aja jalan sama-sama. I'm gonna miss you being around.
Thank you, karena udah jadi adek yang baik buat aku, thank you for putting up with my shit for the past 17years, thank you karena selalu ada buat aku walopun aku ngeselin, aku moody, aku gampang nangis, aku sensitif dan keras kepala. Thank you karena ga banyak adek lain di dunia yang bisa diajakin cerita dan cerita seluwes kamu.
Promise me you'll always be just fine there with your military academy. Mba bangga sama kamu.
And I love you, well I just don't want to admit it sometimes.
Yes. I no longer have someone to share the stories with. That someone, my real bestfriend, is now miles apart from me. But we are still close at heart.
Love,
Darmayanti Budi Cahyani
