Monolog

“Kangen.”

“Pingin ketemu. Pingin peluk.”

“Selamat kerja hari ini! Semangat. Peluk.”

“Tahu nggak, Palembang dingin banget waktu malam, mau cerita: akhirnya skripsi aku sudah selesai. Doakan prosesnya lancar ya.”

“Rindu percakapan sebelum tidur!”

“... tapi gue hanya rindu ngobrol dan tukar pikiran bareng lo. Hey orang cerdas!”

“Bisa nggak, kalau kita mulai lagi dari awal. Tanpa ada embel-embel apapun. Kita cuma saling jatuh cinta. Dan nikmati cintanya. Bersenang senang. Sesederhana itu.”

“Bisa nggak kita mengulang momen momen menyenangkan itu?”

“Boleh nggak, kita saling jatuh cinta dengan sederhana?”

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Kissing

I want to kiss you so badly. I want it to be the type of kiss that leaves us both breathless, and lightheaded. The type that makes us look into each others eyes in disbelief afterwards, then smile because we did, I don’t mind where it happens; outside, inside, in a private, or surrounded area by hundreds of people. I just need to feel those lips on mine. 

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A shadow of you is enough. It lets me know that you are not so far away. That with a few long steps and some sprays of light I will see you. And when the shade gives way to the sun I will see your unknown wholeness glaring over me - the footprints you leave behind, the shrug of your shoulders as they ignore the sun and the way you turn around to finally see me and notice me and love me. And at that moment, I will clutch you till the end of time.

For now your shadow is enough. I will rush to your unknown and probe the mystery of your dimensions. You are there, and the distance is growing smaller.

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Ramadhan Ya Kariim

Jadi ceritanya saya lagi sedih banget ini gara2 puasa sudah mau habis. Tinggal besok doang! Dan tadi udah sholat tarawih yang terakhir. Sperti kayak kehilangan sesuatu yang selama ini jadi penenang jiwa..

ALHAMDULILLAH, di puasa kali ini ga tau kenapa jg saya jd lbh rajin mengunjungi rumah Allah. Saya cuma bolong tarawih dan subuhan  2x. Itu diluar bolong yg dapet tamu bulanan loh yah! Mama saya jg heran kenapa bln ini saya sm adek saya ga susaaaah bgt buat disuruh subuhan di masjid. Kali ini emang riang sekali dehh. We did it sincerely! We did it happily and thats why we feel like Allah is closer to is. Kami berasa makin disayangi..

Tadi pas bacaan di sholat trakhir tarawih (sholat rakaat 7-8) rasanya udah ga kuat nahan tangis, akhirnya jatuh juga.. Hufttt.. Saya kurang nih! Saya jd pengen bulan ramadhan diulang lagi. Diri juga jadi sdkt lbh sabar, liburan kuliah pun jd bikin puasa tambah terfokus, sholat subuh dan isya yg tak pernah tertinggal, etc.

"Mungkin ga tahun depan bakal ketemu Ramadhan lagi?"

My Allah, plis let me try it again. I wanna be better and better. I wanna be closeeeer and closerr to you again.  AMIINNNN. So tomorrow my mom and I will be cooking about the next day straight for making some Lebaran Ied ocassional food. I'll be missing the moment when I have to wake up early at 3 a.m in order to get some 'early breakfast' as a condition in doing Puasa.

Yah semoga semua ada hikmahnya.  Terima Kasih Ya Allah... :'D

Time flies and changes, so do the people

Saya kangen masa dimana dia selalu ada buat saya.

Saya kangen dimana dia selalu menomor satu kan saya.

Saya kangen dimana dia selalu marah pas relationship di fesbuk saya ganti ke single dan kemudian ngerubahnya sendiri.

Saya kangen di cemburuin.

Saya kangen dia yg tiba2 muncul sewaktu saya lagi marah dan minta baikan smbil bawa es krim.

Saya kangen di yg ga pernah bs kalo ga denger suara saya sehari aja.

Saya kangen pelukan manjanya dia waktu lagi nenangin saya.


Sekarang semuanya udh ga ada, mgkn org yg benci sm saya bakal seneng ngeliat saya seperti ini. Saya jg benci untuk ngakuin kebenaran omongan slh satu org yg benci sama saya, kalo saya itu punya pacar yang ga pernah ada pas saya butuhin ga kaya pcarnya dia.... T_______T



Seandainya kamu ngerti perasaan ini, Nta... Seandainya skrg ini kamu sesayang dulu sama aku... Seandainya kamu ngerti sesakit apa ini hati aku dn sesesak apa rasanya dada ini buat nafas cm gara2 perasaan ya ga karu2an ini.. T_____T


Sumpah Ya Allah.. Kalo ada yg lbh perhatian, peduli, dn syg sm saya tolong banget kasih ke saya secepetnya.. Saya cape susah begini terus.. Sedangkan di anteng aja seakan saya udh ga ada harganya lagi dimata dia... Saya cape kaya pengemis buat mnta dingertiin dan diperhatiin tp dia ga pernah bs mau ngerti. Saya pengeeeeen bgt ketemu cowo lain yg suka sama saya lg trus saya jg suka. Jadinya saya ga mesti lama2 bgini terus.. Saya ga mau lagi rasanya sayang sama dia sebegininya Ya Allah. . Saya MALU T.T

Kenapa sih semuanya pada manis pas pertamanya aja? Dia pikir dia cakep apa?!

Ilangin perasaan sayang ini Ya Allah... Aku mohon.. Tolong jadikan aku yg lbh baik dan berikan aku yg lbh baik lg Ya Robbi... T_T_T_T

Aamiin.

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Phisically not good enough

I have never blamed anyone for this, God either. But sometimes, when I flashback to some parts of moments in my life, I realized that maybe it is the one of the matters that causes me always underestimated by most of people. I DO NOT want this just so you know! No one wants this. But how if it is definitely my fate?!! And seems like there is no one to blame for it!

I cant even deny that sometimes I feel envy of someone who always get everything she wants, the one who phisically almost perfect!  the one who's always been adored by everybody, loved by everybody... Yeah, maybe that kinda life only exists on my dreams. In fact is, I have never got anything superb until now, sometimes I got the thing that I never wanted it to be, always got a lot of comments and criticism because of my physical appearance. although actually, I've tried my best to please them or even make them happy. In fact,  those were rarely successful. Most of them failed. It hurts me so bad for sure but I am very grateful to you God..

But you know.. I have never been this sad before.. :")

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