Is Everything Gonna be Okay?

These last three entries are made every one day apart.
Never been this productive before.

I like how my best inspirations come through prayers. I like bagaimana saya bisa menikmati duduk diam sehabis sholat, and above all, I like how He never fails to comfort me and sooth my soul dan kasih jawaban atas semua pertanyaan yang manusia tidak sanggup pikirkan.

Have you ever cried until you're choked up? Until you feel like you can't breath?
Banyak persoalan dalam hidup yang kadang-kadang saya capek simpen sendiri, that I don't want orang lain jadi kepikiran, tapi saya capek mikirinnya setengah mati, sendirian. Rasanya saya tidak mau membebani orang lain, tapi malah saya yang terbebani. Saya tidak mau orang lain jadi susah, tapi saya yang jadi susah sendiri.
Sampai pada akhirnya Ibu saya bilang, "Yan, you can always talk to God."
Simpel tapi nampolnya kenceng.
I've learned that, semua bisa mengecewakan. Orang terdekat dan keadaan bisa tidak menyenangkan. Tapi satu hal yang saya pelajari juga adalah saya selalu bisa ngadu ke Allah, anytime, anywhere, any situation any mood, any season of temptation or joy. The best part? Without fear of being judged.

You are shaking your head, aren't you? You thought, "Oh here's another one of those religious people that's gonna lecture me how to live my life and how to get right with God."
No, I'm not going to preach at you. I'm only gonna share my personal stories.

Everything's gonna be okay.
Cliche isn't it?
People tell you that all the time, to make you feel better, to comfort you, or simply, because they're tired of listening to you whining, whining, and whining all over again.
But if you take a look around you every day, it doesn't seem that way, does it?
Tidak usah jauh-jauh, what do you see when you turn on the telly? Worldwide conflicts and wars.

Mungkin keadaan kamu dan saya belum indah, mungkin kita masih berada di atas perahu yang terombang-ambing di laut lepas regardless of with a direction to go or no direction to go, mungkin kita belum bisa lihat daratan, dan belum bisa menemukan titik terang dalam hidup kita, tapi kalau Yang Diatas sudah menjanjikan bahwa we shall never walk alone in every steps we take, in His time, which is always the right time, semuanya bakal jadi indah. Percaya deh! :)

Jadi, if you still wonder.. Is everything gonna be okay?
Saya kasih tau. Yes, it is.